having said that, if you hate exclamation marks and (...) then you may not want to continue reading.
everyone gets to speak their mind these days and, even though i doubt how much i really have to say, i am taking a stab at it. I am blaming the origin of this blog on early release fridays from mundane office jobs which lead coworkers to drink in excess and force once lively folks to take naps from 6-10. and then mope around accomplishing random tasks- such as cleaning peanut butter containers, chasing fish with the index finger, and thinking about all the things I would do with sharpies if i had 1- paper 2- sharpies.
Oh- I did make a "to-do" list, but marked nothing off the list (if only i had a sharpie...)
Rain is spraying through my window and lightening is crashing down making me wish i had a good reason to be outside. after the dishes were done and the fish were tuckered out i did descend to my stoop which lines the reckless street known to all as Halsted. i sat on cold, gritty metal for ten minutes dodging puzzled glances and floating debris until I decided that i preferred to hear the urban jungle zoom past rather than watch it from below. i do miss the access to tranquility i had when i lived in the northern tip of chicago, but appreciate the unapologetic noise of this area. i wonder if, after having lived in the city for so long, i will ever be able to fall asleep without the sounds of breaking bottles, diesel trucks, clicking horseshoes, screeching yuppies, and high pitched ambulances. i hope so, because this noise is too loud to think over. but i dont think i will find such silence in India, so my conditioning here will serve me well. if i could walk over to the beach right now- i would. profound thought eh?
I have come to the conclusion that i have too many things to do and little desire to get them done. i am preparing to pack up my roots here. i wont be planting them anywhere for a very long time. i think i like that.
(someone outside is shouting, "hey ho, get over here" Luckily, he isnt referring to me.)
Its time for me to go and lead myself. my days have become filled with commuting, complaining, typing, drinking, staring. all action words i can do without. i am looking forward to traveling, creating, meeting, and most of all learning. I am not sure what I will bring to the organization I am placed in but i know i am embarking with great passion and a quest for experiences. is that enough? probably not, so perhaps, by keeping this blog i will be forced to hold myself responsible. you have to expect many important sentences to fill these empty pages, written by me, as I take the leap from a salaried 9-5 (ha!) desk job to a...well I dont know to what exactly- but lets assume an Indian ngo that will expect as much from me as I am hoping to gain from them. i hear there is a recession going on and you shouldnt give up your health benefits on a whim. well, i am doin it (although no one there knows that yet...) and you will be reading about it.
sounds exciting for me...not so much for you...but lets commit to this virtual venture- and if its really great we can make this into a book, publish it, and live lavishly together. the american dream.
